My foot has been acting up recently. Not in a concerning way, but just not right. I'm coming to the conclusion that I'm not sure my body can handle really high mileage anymore. (By really high mileage I'm thinking 100 miles or more a month.) I have been silently dealing with this on my own for a few weeks and decided I would finally tell someone. That someone was Kelsey.
During our run last week I told her I felt something but wasn't sure what. I also told Carrie about it during our failed long run. All I said was I just need to make it to November and then I can take a few weeks of completely. I finally told my husband on Monday and I think he knew. I haven't been myself and he's so supportive that he lets me figure things out myself.
This is honestly the first time in years that I haven't had tons of races figured out for the next year. I'm signed up for Princess in February and I'm doing a Ragnar in June, but as of now that's it. I just don't know how I'm going to feel.
Then I made the biggest mistake ever. I stepped on the scale. Why oh why would I do that? I'm up a few pounds from the last time I weighed myself a few months ago. Some could be water weight, but I'm not counting on it.
I need to find a balance between lower mileage and staying in shape.
Then the discussion started. A bicycle. I have talked about wanting to do a tri at some point and buying a bike would be a big step in that direction. I'm talking with some of my friends to try to figure out the best fit for me. I'm hoping this will help me rotate some workouts and stay in shape while dropping back mileage.
I have always wanted to run a 50k before my 31st birthday and I know now that it isn't going to happen. I won't make it through in one piece. To be honest, the marathon I plan on running in 2018 might actually be it.
So what's my plan? I'm not really sure. I'm thinking running three days a week between 15-20 miles sounds like a good start. I also need to take time to work out with weights and yoga again.
This is hard for me. Really hard. It's so hard to not compare myself to, myself. I know what I'm capable of but its so frustrating to watch my body not respond. I don't need to run fast or far. I just need to be happy and be the best version of me.